Four Years with Muhammad Afiq Hanif.

I forget sometimes that we have been married for four years. Time flies when you're having fun they say (or are in the midst of torturing someone)  :p

They tell me I'm spoiled rotten by you. They tell me I'm so lucky to have you. And yet  I insist on being a tad annoying and weirdly random and crazy when I'm around you.

And then I just tell them : Of course tengoklah siapa yang pilihhhhh :p

From this silly post I bet you can tell that I love you of course and I hope that Allah permits for us to spend many more Ramadhan's together insyallah. 

Ini gambar orang mengamuk dan tidak puas hati setelah dibawa memanjat bukit bukau bagai pada hari lahir. Pada waktu kejadian mangsa memakai sepatu yang baru dibeli terima kasih :P

Four years is only the beginning no ? ;-0  

I won't let anybody hurt you.

excuse the sengal picture of yours truly, my daughter looks beautiful in it. ;-)

I'am sitting here in my little space at work, missing you. This month has been rough. I feel so defeated, so tensed  like a time bomb waiting to explode. There is noise everywhere. Paper scattered on the floor. Useless meaningless chatter and a dozen people walking about. But I still feel alone. I'am only hanging on because of you. Despite what people think. I have experienced it before the difficulty of not having options. I can't let that happen to you, so I won't and I trudge along when actually I want to quit. Its not about the shoes or the little indulgences I allow myself sometimes. People misunderstand.Its not about things. Its about love. It would be easy to just throw up my hands in defeat tell everyone I can't do it anymore, raise the white flag. But you're under my care now. And that can't happen. So I will take the bullets. The unfair judgments towards my choices my character. The little mean comments wrapped in nice packages or mixed with sugar. They don't see the difficulty of it all the struggle for balance. But its okay one smile and I know its worth everything. 

Hari Kesembilan - Gambar barang yang baru dibeli

Fuh. I know its dusty. Don't shoot me. SO many things have been happening and I had wanted to blog so very much but the stars weren't cooperating with me. Err and I'm still going on with this challenge PHEW. Well here is my latest purchase, got it for a steal at RM50 from a friend who was selling off her unused impulse purchases. Isn't it cute? ;-) Am so happy with this purchase and that it can fit Ayra's small pillow her Dora CD's , her baby books and also a change of pampers so its cute and functional. Everything has to be functional when you're a mom.<3 till the next post ;p