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You know those days when you wish you were alone.
Those type of days come often to me. Although it is almost impossible to do now. I like my alone time, and if I can manage it, I adore my alone days.

I just like to retreat into my shell. And sort of change skin like a snake. Its very rejuvenating. I cannot deal with people 365 days. I sort of get a bad allergic reaction.

Does this make me a ‘Bad Mother’?

So when I came across this book written by Ayelet Waldman I could understand where she was coming from. Ayelet had written an article in the New York Times entitled “ Truly Madly Guiltily”.

She had expressed that she loved her children but that she loved her husband more. THE HORROR. THE SHOCK. All hell broke loose after that. She was branded a bad mother a traitor to the sisterhood. There were people who wanted to take her children away.

For me I think she was just being honest.

So who do you love? As for me it is just different types of love not if it is less or more just different. Both very intense. But different.

I adore my daughter to bits. And I love my husband. I relish my alone time

the eye smile

I was glad my father was an eye-smiler. It meant he never gave me a fake smile because it's impossible to make your eyes twinkle if you aren't feeling twinkly yourself. A mouth-smile is different. You can fake a mouth-smile any time you want, simply by moving your lips. I've also learned that a real mouth-smile always has an eye-smile to go with it. So watch out, I say, when someone smiles at you but his eyes stay the same. It's sure to be a phony.

— Roald Dahl

Sacrifices are for the Strong.

YB Ayra Rayyan Muhammad Afiq on tour of her constituency In Bota Perak. For Aidiladha, Ayra made the noble sacrifice of giving up a much needed vacation for the sake of her voters. ;p

This AidilAdha we made the usual trip down to the Silver State. My Opah's house looks good here but actually the caretakers have not TAKEN GOOD CARE of it. Kesian.Kesian Kesian. 
pic is courtesy of second cousin Zakuan Azizi ( eh betul ke your name ni aku main hentam aja.) 

Sungai Perak in all its glory, is just behind my Opah's house something that I will always brag about !! ;-) especially to the H who has no 'kampung' because he is a 'budak KL' whatever * roles eyes* And yes I was not in traditional attire for Aidiladha because we were travelling and I can't stand not being comfortable.Its one of my priorities, I need to move and feed my toddler . Plus I feel silly buying baju raya for two raya's. Am not ten years old. 
Yes. I  have my shades on because it was hot and because * aku rasa ultra cool with shades on especially in hot places and not in the bright lights of a mall * ;ppp
Picture is courtesy of the newlyweds - Shab and Zaid's camera and ehem talented photog and cousin Aiman! ;p.
ends.